I wake up feeling negative every day. Not just because I force myself to wake up earlier than I want to, but also because life can feel like an unending rat race sometimes.

Maybe that’s why I do routines, mainly by working out and writing right after I wake up. Because then, no matter how my day goes, I’d at least have improved in my main priorities in life.

Yet I can’t shake the thought that I’m operating at a lower level than most people I know. Like, my friends don’t have problems standing up for themselves. They don’t have problems talking to strangers, or doing the groceries.

Me? Just the thought of having to do the groceries short-circuits my brain. Because the possibilities of things going wrong are endless.

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