pickles oranges apples cat

Writing is a crystaliser (not a word) of thoughts. It is the equivalent of capturing photos of your mind, allowing you to see your thoughts, the way you would look up at the clouds and make out their ever-changing shapes.

But you can’t expect to turn every thought into something useful, because most of it is just gibberish.

Here’s an example: pickles oranges apples cat. Random words that just passed through my caffeinated mind. Words that have no context, and no use for us in this particular moment. And yet. 

That’s the thing about writing. You get to take readers on a journey through your mind. To share perspectives, like showing them photos of your child. And you never know where each thought could end up. Because I didn’t know where I’d end up going when I first typed those four words. AND YET.

Yet, those four words are teaching me new things about myself. That writing doesn’t have to be a romantic gesture that happens only when you have a two-hour block of time (I’m writing this on the bus ride to work). The words are telling me that a story does not need to adhere to a ‘blog structure’, or even have a comprehensible title. They’re saying that perhaps I should stop taking myself so seriously.

Perhaps you have the space to do the same. To stop putting off that silly idea of learning to sail. Or starting a sketchbook in the face of your doubts. Or building that sacrificial altar you’ve been planning to but just haven’t gotten around to harvesting goat blood.

All I’m saying is, perhaps you should pickles oranges apples cat.

Should You Pursue Your Dreams?

I used to talk people out of their dreams. They would tell me about their dreams of doing jiu-jitsu full time, and I would reply with downers like “Who’s gonna pay your cancer bills?”

Quite hypocritical, seeing how I once flew to Thailand to stay and train in a Muay Thai gym for a month. Other random goals include joining a regional MMA competition alone and quitting my cushy job to a write a novel.

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If You’re Gonna Use ChatGPT For Everything, Then At Least Do This

The future of writing will mirror the fashion industry, in the sense that fast-fashion will still have its audience, but it’s the handmade items that will stand out.

It’s a pretty fitting analogy, seeing how humankind can never compete with machine-made. But that’s only if you take these factors into account: speed, accuracy, low cost.

Yet it is the long production time and imperfections that give bespoke items their value. And I’m optimistic that I will belong in this segment of the market when that time comes.

A plastic world

I’ve noticed an interesting phenomenon once ChatGPT went mainstream. All of a sudden, friends who spoke English as a second language began crafting immaculate Instagram captions and work e-mails.

It may seem like they’re putting their best foot forward, but all they’re doing is presenting a fake mask, because I know for a fact they don’t speak like that.

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If You Can Breathe, You Can Do Anything

I don’t feel like I can do anything today. But I can breathe. And if I can breathe, I can do something. If I can breathe, I can lift a hand. I can speak. I can walk. I can feed myself.

I can write.

I can write.

I can write.

And I know for a fact that writing has the power to stir. Because I am an audience of this medium as much as I am the performer.

If I can breathe, I can write a book that barely sold ten copies. I can question my choice of vocation, but I can also wake up the next day and try again. I can let others dictate my voice because that pays the bills. I can lose interest in writing, too. Throw away all my dreams and just stop trying.

I can improve my diet, exercise more, spend time with my family, just so I could nurture the creativity that brought me to where I am today.

I can do so many things because I can still breathe. Most importantly, I can write this short piece. And perhaps, in a very weird way, the writing itself is me breathing. A breath I’ve been holding for a very long time.

Don’t Try

On Bukowski’s grave are the words ‘Don’t try’, an epitaph that leaves much room for interpretation. This coming from a man who wrote for decades without compensation, who dared to suffer for his craft, and who was also a loser by society’s standards.

Yet I can’t help feeling a connection with the Buk. He was a loner, I’m a loner. He loved drinking, I love drinking. He quit writing for 10 years, and I’m… well…

I’ve written all I need to write, and now there’s a lack of life to sustain the output. I don’t feel what I write anymore, and that’s a problem. Because how do I coax feelings out of you when I don’t feel anything myself?

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